Fade's Changed

Ever since the secret of his eye was revealed Fade doesn't come out of his room except for missions and tell me to collect certain people, according to him we've gained the trust of birds of a feather, that of the sleeping dogs, rapturous disease, tranquility, the black blood, the lost and cold children, the ticking lord, the creep. Apparently they're the majority we need to fulfill the plan we have set out to achieve, the plan the conductor and he devised, the plan, Fade says, which is the key to his freedom, and the end of my servitude. Siran hasn't showed 'her' face since the last time, but Fade tells me she is still on our side, he means too much to them to let him out of their sight, Malice has also started bringing victims back with him, I hear screams half the night, sobs the other time I swear between the three of them I will go crazy far before the Fears affect me, wait haven't I said that already in an earlier post...... it's official I've lost it...... I've obviously had a hit on my head and am now just dreaming all this, none of this is real, I am in a hospital being treated by normal, non psychotic doctors, surrounded by my loving family, not about to be killed anytime I go outside.

I'm joking I know this is real, also Fades eye thing I'm intrigued by it if anyone on here any information please can you relay it to me, I made a drawing, but I'm not an artist nor is the camera very good that I stole, must have dropped it, see i never would have stolen before this... (Focus, no sidetacks).

The Muse's friends

So Fade took me out on a 'relaxing' day as a reward for all my hard work, which I personally thought I deserved especially after all of the injuries, both mental and physical, I have gained in 'the line of duty'. Unfortunately it didn't work out like that, we had some visitors from Fade's life and they didn't exactly stay quite about him.

It was on of the only sunny days we've had this year and so I went out to enjoy the nice weather, Fade even dug up a couple of shorts and shirts so we didn't have to go out in the suits, it was odd seeing Fade so casual, even had sunglasses on. Malice was going to come with us but he says he's allergic to fun so didn't come along, which was fine by me, the guy creeps the fuck out of me. So only me and Fade went to a park close to the, I don't what to call it actually base? Lets go with base. Well after getting a few drink and lighting one of his choking cigarettes we heard someone shout Manic? Fade just ignored it, so did I as I thought it was the best idea to just copy what Fade did, then the voice came closer and said Manic but more cautiously than before.

Voice from behind: Manic, that's you isn't it?

I turned around to see a dark haired man and one that looked like he had recently come back from the brink of death.

Fade: Tom, Grey, leave now.
Dark haired man: We won't we are either going to take you back or kill you so you can stop causing pain to Kat.
Fade: Why do you think I'm doing this Tom.
Tom (I guess): because you're a selfish person who cherishes his own life above those of the people he loves.
Fade: *He finally turns to face them and grabs the Tom bloke by his shirt fronts* I am not selfish, I am doing this for all of you, so leave, now.
Grey ( The other guy): *He says in a weak voice* Manic please stop, we're too tired to fight you, and we really don't want to.
Fade: And that's why you have to leave, you know what I can do and if it means protecting her I will do it.
Tom: And what did you do Manic, you ran away, you joined the Fears and you made Kat suffer, she thought you were dead! Don't you care?
Fade: *Low but angry* Ofcourse I care I did what I did to save her, to save all of you.
Tom: And what did you do, what massive escapade has saved us from the Fears?
Fade: I sacrificed my life for yours, happy, I made it so I could never be happy again, I forfeited the life I had gained from the conductor and gave it to you, on the solitary condition you forget, forget me, forget them, live normal lives. But as always you people are too stubborn for your own good.
Tom: and what about Patrick? What about the little boy who doesn't have his father, why is he left in the middle of your mess, he needs you.
Fade: He doesn't need me, non of you need me, I made sure of that when I left, Grey is no longer a lych, you have lost your apathy, you have Aoife, and Kat..... well she has all of you and Patrick, the only truly good thing I have made, so leave.
Tom: You bastard!Kat is not fine she isn't better without you.
Fade: Yes.... yes she is.

* Apparently out of nowhere Tom punched Fade and sent his sunglasses flying off, Grey looked extremely uncomfortable*

Fade: There is no way I can go home, see.

*Fade pulls Tom towards him so there noses are touching*
Tom: M.... Manic, what's up with your eyes?
Fade: They are my contract, and I'm not Manic anymore, not for a long time, I am Fade.... I am a proxy. So you should leave or die trying to bring me back.
Tom: This isn't over Manic, we will bring you back one way or another.
Fade: *Waits for them to be out of earshot and sadly said* No... no you won't.

P: Why did your eyes freak that guy out?
F: Because they are no longer my eyes.
P: I don't understand.

Fade walks towards me and I see in his eyes what looks like a clock face with arm pointing at either midday, or midnight.

Ow,ow,ow

All this training is really getting to me, I have had more exercise these past 3 days than I have had in my entire life, but I must have got better since I had to fight for my life the other day. Fade calls them hunted, or runners, people who are victims of the Fears, some of them hunt the, ummmm Fade calls us proxies.... servants. I was out on a routine surveillance mission for Fade, he doesn't seem to do his own work anymore just gets me to do it. Well this was a new runner according to Fade so he wasn't suppose to be a good fighter, but I guess this guy had a grudge with whatever Fear was chasing him and any person associated with them. Well I got a bit lazy and was spotted, the person just ran at me screaming, with what looked like a bat, but it looked crudely made, I dodged it but just letting my body go limp, Fade calls it the possum.

I bravely lied to him feigning ignorance about why he was attacking me.
P: Wait, wait, wait, what are you doing you maniac!
Runner: Die!!
P: Please stop, I haven't done anything to you.
R: That's just what you people would say!
*He runs at me a swings the bat again I raise my arm and felt it rattle, it must have been close to breaking*
P: What people, dude what are you doing.
R: Fight me you shit, you and the fucking fears deserve to die!
P:Fears, what?!You're fucking crazy mate, just let me be, I have a girlfriend, friends... what are you doing?
*I saw the runner's face falter in it's anger*
R: I.... I'm sorry, I .... I'm just being chased by something... please forgive me, just forget about me.
P: Why would I forget I'm gunna call the police, don't be surprised if you end up in prison you little shit!
R: I..... I'm sorry.
* He ran,when he got to the end of the street and got out of sight Fade appeared apparently out of nowhere*
F: Nice lying Pete, but this is no longer a simple intimidation mission.
P: What do you mean?
F: *He started to vanish slowly* Kill boy. *His masked face was the last to fade*

I chased after him, just far enough behind to stop arousing his suspicion, I was going to follow him until he stopped, I saw him turn into an alley, probably to hide from the imaginary police chasing him. I walked casually to the end of the alley so not not make too much noise and make him aware I was there, I took out the knife Fade gave me, I crept up behind him but he must have heard me or something because just at the last moment he turned and brought the bat down on my head. I barely rolled out of the way of his bat, it hit the concrete.

R: So you did lie.
P: Hey I'm a fear servant what do you expect.

He swung at me again but this time I was ready, I got down low to avoid the bat and punched him in the stomach , he reeled back a couple steps but got himself ready before I could follow up he swung the bat as I tried to stab him, he hit me in the wrist , my knife went flying, I held my wrist it was definitely broken. The runner came at me with his fists, I saw the remains of his splintered makeshift bat where he stood a few moments before, I got down ow and tackled him round the waist, I got him on his back, I knelled on his arms to stop his protecting his face, I proceeded to punch him in the face with my one good hand, I got his face quite bloodied before he I got a knee in the back, it sent me sprawling I rolled away, he got up and stumbled over to where my knife had fallen, and came back taking it like I was gonna me some Mayan sacrifice, HE was bringing the knife down when I grabbed the a sharp end of his splintered bat and put it out infront of me, I felt the body fall on it and the pierce and slide of the body. His body slumped and fell to the side and my knife landed right next to my head, I got up and got my head straight when I heard a gasp as the guy wasn't dead yet I just took the heavy end of the bat and bashed his brains in.

After making sure he was dead I heard a cold laugh, I looked about and saw a silhouette of a person lent on a wall, but when I looked again it was gone. I asked Fade later if it was him on the wall, he said no, that he had the utmost confidence I would succeed so he didn't stick around to watch,he did however heal my wrist, can this situation get any weirder.

My arm's better, but that's the only good news

Malice has got my room, and with Siran occupying I have to stay with Fade in his, but little did I know Fade doesn't sleep, he sits and writes in a book. Seriously this guy is weirder than any of the things he's got me going after, but I guess doing this your entire life will do that to you, I only wish he'd stop smoking when he does it, at this stage I'm more likely to die of smoke inhalation than Fear involvement. It was one of these nights that he asked me to do something else,

F: Little Droogie, can you do something?
P: *Rubbing sleep from my eyes* Droogie, what's that shit?
F: From a film I saw, I think.
P: What do you want it's early?
F: See why Siran is awake and pacing in her room.
P: I don't hear anything, maybe she's annoyed by all the smoke you exude.
F: Are you saying you won't do it?
P: Well....... k..
F: Good droogie, no in and out now.
(Although he smiled it wasn't filled with the same cockiness and self assurance, he genuinely looked worried about something, but why should I care)

I knocked on Siran's door and waited for a reply, I didn't get any so I open it to check like Fade told me, when my senses adjusted I wasn't in her room. I appeared to be in the center of a giant funnel of water, then I heard Siran's voice in the roar of the water.

S: Oh I got the puppy, I wanted the sailor, but I'm sure I can still have fun with you anyway.
P: What are you doing, why aren't we back at our place?
S: I'm trying to draw the Fading Muse to have a chat but obviously that didn't work, as to where, we are nowhere, or rather in between places. We should be arriving somewhere any moment.
(With a wet splat I landed on what felt like a water bed filled with oil, I got up and saw nothing but a still, shiny ocean, but it wasn't water and it wasn't quite oil. Siran appeared behind me and she looked different than she did before, well I haven't seen her for a while.)
P: Um Siran?
S: Yes, that's what the Fading Muse has called this vessel.
P: Vessel? Why are you like Blue, and soaked through.
S: Blue, oh yes the Fade hasn't told you much, this is my new form, well the start of it, the all consuming mother has made this vessel, I am her now, you may call me..... More.
P: More? When did you turn into Oliver Twist?
S: *She grabs me by the throat and lifts me up* You dare laugh at me, Boy, you are two thousand years to try to tease me, the Fade's protection keeps you safe, for now but I will take you into me, remember my first words to you.
P: Which were?
S: I will find you when I need you... you are mine, now leave this place.
P: And if I don't
( The surface of the 'ocean' was broken by hands coming and dragging me under, which I took as my que to say I'll leave, didn't she use to be attractive)

I woke up with Fade looking over me

F: Back then, where did you pop off to/
P: I don't know there was a lot of what looked like water.
F: Well, maybe it's to be expected, she's almost fully integrated  there may be a tiny bit of her left but it's mostly the Fear she holds inside herself.
P: Fade..
F: Yes droogie
P: Try and teach me to fight again.
F: Think you can handle it?
P: Yes.
F: Let's start right away then.
P: What it's not even 3 oclock
F: You were in a fears world it's 6 here can't you see the sun's almost up.

I already regret this

More Errands from Fade

Let see, there have been plenty but I think the most interesting was 'seeing a man about a dog' Fade has some twisted sense of humor however he said I shouldn't let my guard down, I asked why he just said Secrets hurt the holder the most a lot of the time, whatever the fuck that means.

I went to the place Fade told me to go to I had to wait hours before anything to happen, you know what did finally happen a small black puppy came out and snuggled up to my leg, I said jokingly, here's the dog where is the man..... I heard a voice from behind me

Voice: Obviously you never met a lych

I looked around but no one was there, I looked back the cute dog had changed into this huge, I think wolf is a better term than dog for this thing. It must have been 5 feet high and the teeth looked more than a little menacing.
P: *Gulp* Good Dogie *Nervous chuckle*
Dog (I guess): I see you have gained the Muse's type of jokes.
P: Um...... Can you come with.
D: The Muse should come and see me himself.
P: H... he said he will talk to you if you came with me.
D: WHAT!

(It jumped me and bit down on my arm, I felt the muscles strain the tendons near tearing as the pain shot up to my brain)
P: HE SAID AN ALPHA SHOULD WANT TO STAY ON TOP!!! PLEASE LET ME GO!!!!!!
D: *It releases* What does he mean?
P: I DON'T KNOW, FUCK, MY ARM!
D: Stop whining like a pup I didn't permanently damage anything.
P: WILL.... YOU...... COME.... THEN!
D: Yes but on my time and decision.
P: CAN'T YOU HELP ME BACK?!
D: If you can't get back on your own I don't think you deserve to frankly.

Fade's patched it up and healed it, but it's still stiff, he couldn't stop laughing for hours. He's a fucking bastard.

I find I don't like doctors

I met up with the torture porn bloke, he fucking creeped the hell out of me, I wish Fade wouldn't send me to do stuff like this.

Well, anyway, I met this guy at an abandoned warehouse somewhere in south London, he had a woman on the table screaming without a leg.

P: Are you Malice?
Ma: Yes.... who are you?
P: I'm Peter, I'm here on behalf of Fade.
* He turns around with a mischievous look on his face*
Ma: Fade? What does that feline bastard want?
P: He need your opinion on something, and he wanted me to bring you to him. What do you mean by feline?
Ma: *He chuckles* I'm sure you've heard about how cats have 9 lives, well, that's Fade for you... you do know about the Manic incident?
P: Only bits and pieces he's not exactly forth coming with his past, I don't even think he remembers most of it himself.
Ma: Ahhh, well why didn't the bastard come here himself, afraid I'll try to cut something off him again?
P: Maybe, I believe it's more a test of resolve on my part, I'm his..... Apprentice I guess.
Ma: Yes he always liked to take in strays. Test your resolve you say..... ahh that's what he wants me to do.
P: *A bit fearful* Do what?
Ma: A little test, please come over to this table and lie down.
P: What is this?
Ma: the test.

*He straps me down and injects me with something*

Ma: It's a hallucinogenic that's been developed by my people, if you have resolve enough to battle through it than I guess I'll follow you back to Fade. If you don't I'll use the footage for other means and Fade will have to come after me himself.
P: Wh....

* I passed out, I'm not exactly sure what happened there's only shattered pieces, but there was a voice inside my head, 'Hey little white sheep oh so pure, the darkness in your heart lays well assured. I woke up covered in sweat and my shirt front open, Malice was standing over me with a camera and a scalpel*

Ma: Damn....... well I'm a man of my word, take me to your leader.

I've lost track of the days

I’m home, finally I have got Fade’s say so that it’s ok to return home, well the place I’ve come to recognise as home. It was strange seeing that woman looking so different from when I last saw her, she didn’t look so empty I guess is what I mean, when I came in the door she was looking at the shower’s door and the shower was on. I came in and she didn’t seem to notice me, the shower stopped going and out came Fade, he always likes walking about with his shirt off, it was just as weird seeing the girl wearing one of Fade’s suits which hung off her weirdly it also looked like it was damp, she must have took a shower before Fade, but there was also a weird feel around her, I couldn’t put my finger on it, must be my imagination since she changed a lot since I last saw her a few weeks ago.

F: What’s the face about Pete, I thought you’d be ecstatic to be back her after being out in the cold?

*Fade looked like he hadn’t slept for days so I didn’t push him about the dream I had that had him and the clockwork Man*

P: Sorry I guess I’m still not used to all of this, and seeing her like this is weird after the ….. thing. Hey I still don’t know what she is.

F: I’ll explain to you later, I have a job for you; a job hat requires you not to stink of unwashed bodies, take one of my suits.

P: What is the job, who do you want me to kill?

F:  No one, this is a special non-lethal mission. I want you to go and meet one of my unique associates.

P: What’s wrong with him?

F: He likes to cut people open and sneak the scenes into horror films…. I enjoy his creativity.

P: You know you have a mental deficiency?

F: Thank you, I’ll take that as a compliment. (He said with his snug smirk)

P: I’m not sure whether I meant it as one or not?

F: Oh I’m sure you did, but this associate you need to be careful with him, you may end up as a celebrity in a horror film.

P:  Why do I have to speak to some guy who takes inspiration from Jigsaw.

F: Because he’s a fun guy and I require his expertise in a delicate matter.

P: Where am I meeting him and although I’m going to regret asking this what does he look like?

F: Oh, you’ll know, you have to beware however, he follows the thing in the mask.

P: The doctor?

F: Bingo…. I have to look after Siran.

P: Siran,?

F: Our little guest.

The rest of the day consisted of me having multiple showers, putting on a new suit and curling up in front of the fire and sleeping.  I have to meet the ‘associate’ in a few days so lets hope for the best.